This is an introduction to my new course, Establishing HER! See the outline here!
Yesterday, I began paint a picture of where the people pleasing and self-sabotaging behaviors ignited during my adulthood. Truthfully those behaviors began earlier in my childhood but again that’s not what this series is about!!
I ended yesterday’s series having just began another job where I was enjoying the changes that were occurring in me. I can’t say I was feeling confident or prideful, but I was on the way. It was during this time I wrote my first book. Even that was a surprise because it wasn’t supposed to be a book. It was bunch of thoughts I had written, and a friend read it and suggested I publish it. I shared it with another author and his critique caused me to delay the release of the book by 2 years. He told me it appeared I was bashing my then husband and that was not how “Christians” handled their problems.
It was also during this time, I attended a Forgiveness class and decided to allow my then husband to return to our home and work on our issues. Because I wanted to be a GOOD Christian! This return and my desire to “do the right thing” resulted in me resigning from yet another job. It posed too many issues in my marriage and my marriage was my duty! Being the bread winner, gave my then husband pride! It helped his self-esteem and self-worth. So, when he quit his nearly 6-figure income job, I couldn’t understand but quickly went and got a job to hold us over until he was able to secure employment. I hated this job!!! I was working as a cashier at a local craft store for $8 an hour. I created and sold crafts to supplement the income.
It would have appeared that I would have realized my potential at that point. Here I was taking care of the household, putting a child through college on $8 hour and a makeshift craft business!
After finances were re-established, I took a course that changed everything! I became certified as a life coach. I had no idea what I was going to do with the certification. I had no idea at all! I began doing workshops and vision board parties. I began promoting my book. I began taking pride in myself again. By this time all my kids were either grown or in college except one. I had a little freedom to try and figure out what I wanted to do with my life. The abuse was very subtle at this point and I continued to turn my back on the infidelity.
I gave a workshop for a local women’s ministry on abuse that changed my life forever!!! For the first time in my life, I was able to see clearly….
See you tomorrow for the next episode!
Until Next Time!
