This month’s focus has been on self-trust and mine have been tested repeatedly. I’m often told “I don’t know how YOU did it. I want to give up! I can’t take anymore.” If I had a nickel for every time I wanted to give up and a quarter for every time
, I STILL mumble about it being too hard. I would be a rich woman! Just because you see me smiling and pushing forward, does NOT mean I don’t cry myself to sleep at times. It does NOT mean I don’t ask “why me?” It doesn’t mean my circle don’t hear about all the hell I face daily.
I could tell how I am overlooked for jobs that I know I can do. How even though I have met some awesome people on my dating journey, I have also met some that should have been flushed! I could tell you how there are days I feel motivated and confident in who I am and then there are days I rip myself apart because my panties and bra don’t match. I could tell you how I can stick to my health regiment while other days I must throw myself into work, so I don’t go on a binge.
I could also tell you that I’m not ready to give up. I fought too hard to get this far to only get this far. I have more in me, and I will not stop until I have accomplished the goals, I have set for myself. I know what it feels like to give up – it’s time to know what it feels like to keep going. Is it easy? Heck NO! Will it be worth it? I certainly hope so. Will I keep going so I can see? Absolutely! Because no one can stop me but me. It’s my choice when to throw in the towel. Because then and only then will I know I have done all I can do. So, from now on I will stop saying I had a rough day; instead, I will say I had a character-building day.
If you are at one of the many crossroads on your journey; where you feel like you cannot go forward, just remember; there was a time you prayed to get here. There was a time it seemed impossible to do half the things you are doing now. BUT look at you! You are accomplishing those once impossible tasks and you will accomplish the next ones if you keep pushing forward.
It does not matter if must crawl, keep going. It does not matter who says NO – as long as you say YES. It does not matter how long it takes, just know it is on its way. Just know you only fail if you stop! Remember tough days build character!
Until Next Time,
